So, I promised that the majority of these articles would be fairly short and to the point. However, today I must go back on my word so that I can help you understand a little bit more about me, and why I am on the journey I am currently travelling.
For a good number of years, I was quite ill. So ill in fact that at some point the doctors did not think I was going to make it, and my family members were told to start making final arrangements for me. There were times I could not walk or care for myself, but God has brought me through a very dark and trying time and great healing has taken place in my body.
I remember one night, being in the resuscitation room at the ER as my heart had stopped and there was a young boy about the age of 17 in the bed beside me who had been stabbed and left for dead on the streets. I remember it so well because it was Valentines night, and although I could not communicate with my family or doctors, I could pray to my heavenly Father and that is what I did. I prayed for me, my family and for the boy in the bed beside me. As the doctors worked tirelessly on him to bring him back for more than 45 minutes, I could hear his mother and girlfriend screaming and crying out in the hallway. They called it. He was gone. About 7 to 10 minutes later, one of the nurses called them all back, she got a thready pulse. Again, the medical team worked their hardest to bring this boy back, but nothing was working. It was his time I guess. Why? I am not sure.
Why did I live? Why did I live through the gazillion visits to the ICU, ER and Resuss rooms only to survive? Why have I escaped the clutches of death nearly all my life? You see since I was a child there has been a plethora of times where my life should have been taken, but by the grace of God, I was saved, and I was having a hard time with this.
This past January, I went into the ER and ICU for three different weeks. I was diagnosed with yet another terrifying health issue, and again I asked myself why? "Why God have you saved me from all of what I have gone through, just to live this miserable life?" You see my heart had been broken. From very close friends, to my spirit... it was just broken. And although I knew it was only Christ who could fill the cracks, holes and pieces of my heart that had been ripped out, I also longed for something deeper. I needed Him and only Him. But I also needed people. After all, even God said, "it is not good for man to be alone." I just needed an earthly person to share some of life with. However that is for another posting.
So I am sitting there, bawling my eyes out after waking up after another night of asking Abba Father to take me home and I asked Him again WHY??? "Why did you save me? Why did you save me just for this:?" And even though it was not an audible voice, as clear as day I heard... "I SAVED YOU BECAUSE I WANT YOU TO LIVE... BEFORE YOU DIE, I WANT YOU TO LIVE THE LIFE I PLANNED FOR YOU" And so my friends... I plan on living. What I will do and how I will do it? I am not quite sure yet, but I have already started to make changes and have started to live. Join with me and live your life today!
They say that diamonds are a girls best friend.... but who ever said that, never owned a dog! That's a quote I came across once and fell in love with. And although I do love shiny, sparkly, little baubles, the love and joy of owning a dog is incredible. I suppose if I had the chance to have my own children I would be writing about them instead, but alas, the only babies I will ever have is fur babies at this point!! Having said that, don't cry for me Argentina, because I am as happy as a clam with my Bob and Buster. They give me love and fill my heart with the kind of joy that sometimes reduces me to tears when I think of how God fashioned in them in such a way that their personality and reason for living is loving!
